Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Sudden surge of emptiness

Haven't really updated my blog for couple weeks...instead, idling the time away in dreamy thought on my cosy bed.

Reason being? Maybe not so much of laziness BUT a Sudden Surge of Emptiness. Can't be bothered to care about boredom that seemingly exists somehow, somewhere. Hope I'm not in any kind of mental disorder though.


Perhaps this is the side-effect of long-term aki tortures... for squeezing the mind too much till a drip of cerebrum juices could hardly be seen. Now, it's time to rejuvenate the Chi.




Some thoughts flashing off my mind recently which I hope to share with you guys anytime soon.
Stay Tuned.

Regards,
Desmonde D'Crinoline

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

讽刺的童话

我承认对音乐认识不多,但它帮我表达了某种情况,某天的某种看法。

我人有些古老,听的大多是旧又情感的歌。那种十年前在理发店都找不到的歌星发型。

可这歌, 让我从另个角色的角度探讨这古老的传说-所谓轰隆隆之讽刺童话:





这是改变不了的现实,每个人都有写述故事的潜能。。。
一些作家把它当童话般看待。。。我则讽刺地看待。。。

也许内容是这么编写(改篇自你若成风):

罗密欧与朱丽叶
顿时相遇风雨夜
雷神交加的思恋
就像槟榔剖两片

挥刀再切越细,越来越细,越来越细。。。哟哟哟。。。

你若化成疯
我幻化成愚
走入你心间
红颜成祸水


你若化成疯
我幻化成愚
爱缩在霉间
剧毒散满不能解


乖乖我的小怪怪
你的行举太可骇
追你的男生每个都跑到超级厉害
我正在考虑怎么say bye,
害羞的我这样下去要怎么办?

怎么办爱情甜又酸


我不是富家子
没有超大的房子
只是有点神经质
可不可以陪我不理智
不想看时间这么一点一滴飞逝
老不是扮着假尴尬
我不要可拿你没办法
结果和你一起蒙蒙恰恰
就带你回家见妈妈。。。。哟哟哟。。
#Chorus Repeat#













周末找个借口和你泛舟
一壶清醋 江水悠悠 我心忧忧
这感情only u?
表面平静其实他们早已不断抢尽
缘字诀 几番轮回 你锁眉 Ooo。。。
哎哟你的心情左右我的情绪
虽然有些问题真的很难搞定













我还是充满信心









老不是扮着假尴尬
我不要可拿你没办法
结果和你一起蒙蒙恰恰
就带你回家见妈妈。。。。哟哟哟。。。
#Chorus Repeat (缘字诀 几番轮回 还是遇见你。。。哎哟哟。。)#
Wowo.....













“她千万不要装酷
呆的像大脑短路
他们给她礼物
只想收一点点幸福
才领悟 那倒有些迟钝
奉她为公主 不如崇拜对面胖叔叔
有压力也要顶住
坚持自己的道路
真心去付出
随时准备自我颠覆
这一首有点狂露
不预示下一个傻大叔
踩到这地雷连奥巴马都彷徨无助”






你若化成疯
我幻化成愚
爱缩在霉间
剧毒散满怎么解?。。。













抽刀断水水更流
借酒思愁愁更愁呀。。。Haiz。。。3。。2。。1。。
这古老的传说
要牢记在心中
因为去年今日此门中
桃花依旧笑央红
桃花不知何处去
人面依旧笑春风。。。
photos from http://media.photobucket.com/image/old%20time%20night%20sky/stregadellaombre/night-sky.jpg




Sunday, November 29, 2009

Of recent me. A Green Thought.

hm.. mentally-blank on what to put down here after 120 rush hours (1-3 hour sleep daily, not that bad huh). Well..writing blogs feels kinda different from writing diaries. The latter has no restrictions while allowing you to pour daily reflections though. Some chaps would just tell you, Hey this is the world today! Go-online, paperless, Go-green!


But do we?

In terms of saving papers, yes i agree wholeheartedly but one has to be cautious that Go-green term is more of eco-intelligence as how I termed the "money-concept" in the previous post. Put it in a simpler way, it's Brainwash-ing!
How? well then some of you might find it prevalent for a normal household to be air-conditioned in Singapore which ironically happens to be in the Tropics (hot and humid is unbearable but wind & rainfall neutralize such conditions at some point). However back in the 70's before the advent of air-cond system people would look for electric fan during hot sunny days.



My point is, despite a sense of mannerism in the socio-behavioral system of human i.e. people are distinguished from the way they think and sense, when put into a larger picture, a community or group, tend to be "naturalized"  into such wider group in as much as their thinking are restricted to a certain extent. While democratic decision calls for majority votes, oppositions are expected to conform to the ultimate upshot. Just like the air-cond, there were of course people rejecting such idea of cooling and yet when the whole world is believing this new guy, what's more they can say? All we might do is to thumbs-up, blindly adopting this technology cuz this is a total monopoly, a market of no rivalries. So what happens is the ensuing interests, firms wanting to be part of the system for the sake of profit, money to be more precise, trapping themselves in another spatial concept...by forming cartel perhaps, air-cond of different branding starts popping up in the market.

We all know that technological advances in a great leap ever since the Millennium causing us to undergo an exponential growth (termed in the popular video DID YOU KNOW). In fact, issue of sustainability has to deal more than just the social equity, of population explosion and widening rich_poor gap; but the forgotten mother nature and economy (ironically, yes, in order to survive - could be of money or not at all). If we study closer social-behavioral framework from the Paleolithic era to the Modern age, we could see a shift from self-sufficient agriculture to barter system and finally an economized agriculture when everything is equivalent to money values. Indeed a change from practical to physical then realistic and abstract.

This is nonetheless a linear progression although the current state suggests a rather superficial situation especially with the rapid development of virtual medium, internet, 3G and etc. However, the concept of such linear flow still  remains a contending idea.. who knows it could be a Cyclical flow, when disaster hits and we are denude of all our current financial system that we must rely on the basic, primitive means of survival, growing plants, barter system and so on. One apple for two oranges?

Are we not sensitive to alternatives when we are bounded within these "abstract spatial model" of the current world? Are we, in a way, not competent with our fellow aliens because of the evil of mankind to crave for money and wealth instead of preserving our natural senses? Because nowadays we are more or less a visual animal, we rely much on what we see...not the others. For instance, air-cond shuts down our natural thermal adaptation. Cuz we are living in the tropic and it will make us less attuned to this climatic condition.

Alright, I am not anti-air-cond freak or something, I live with it too sometimes when the climate is just too unbearable. I just want to raise a concern over the concept of Go-Green. For it to work, we must make sure it is not another Spatial-concept framed by some people, just to dig the most profit from us. In other words, it means do it in the physical & practical way.









Photos from : gcmouli.wordpress.com
made-in-china.com
blogs.phillyburbs.com

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

机械的节奏

哈。。与其与时间共舞,不如再歇歇脚。。。况且人生,休息就是为了走更远的路(好可怜的脚,天生就得看地上,天天磨擦,现在连休息还被这么样的形容。。。)

人家说吃得多,易发福。。。还得看消化系统吧!
近来跟sustainable, history字眼走得很靠近,愈来愈不信眼前的一切。
小时候在班上哭,老师分糖果唯的是分散我们的注意力,那不哭换来几颗糖果,在小孩的贸易世界里总算值得吧。哭就与糖果在脑海扯上了潜意思关系,哭就是糖果,再不如美丽的铅笔。。等等。小小的关系凑成了每个人不一样的历史。你童年捉蜻蜓的童影,我小时的战前小屋,他亲朋戚友的欢笑声,我夜半宁静的眼泪,生日的炸鸡,童军的日子。。。每个人都有他乡的故事,解释了今天我你他的分别。

那这些童影叙述了无数的联系物。。。你的蜻蜓,我的Nona树,他的沙滩映照。。。
昨天的历史说明了今天,创造着明天。
 相信每个人都是特别的。

那社会呢?城市呢?我们是它们多元化的元素 么?
从脚步,到马蹄,四轮直到二轮知道没有轮。。飞跃天空的梦想终于在一个世纪前实现了,间中丢舍了不少人命。。牺牲者。。那好奇地,今天大家都复古。。脚踏车,无碳城市。。
我们是否运用科技来抵达过去?因为天时地利不允许我们对昔日的追溯。
sustainable。。说着人类多过自然界吧。

狂想? 世界在退化。
也许达尔文在其进化论嘲笑人类的无知吧。。。
 与其在寻找它的真实性,恐龙绝种与人类诞生的missing gap..
不如看看人类今天的区别吧。
早期的人类,homo sapiens 取代了 neanderthal也许后者不能自行交配。。。
前者虽懂得性别的分区但男女大致上都裸身, 气候不适才配上一些“棉衣”。今天我们男女有不一样的衣服,穿着。从内裤到胸罩到丁字裤,从男扮女装,女伴男装。。。今天的我们是否迷失了自我?早期的社会是否男女更平等?因为 男女坦然地面对彼此的不同点,互相学习。。早期的人们很努力,明白物的价值,种了一箩菜换取一箩苹果。如今这个了解被物质蒙骗了,所以有了金钱的虚拟物品。那是现实,那超现实主义是否说那只纯粹一张废纸呢?是某个王八相出来的概念。这一切`只是我引用的假设。
 从男尊女卑到女性主义到人道主义。。。我们在改变。。。到底怎么样的改变呢?
从BARTER到金钱系统。。。我们是否无能为力再没有私心?
从动用劳力到依赖机械。。。说明了其后遗症,头大四肢萎缩的人类。。。八十年代的恐惧。
 Social constructivists的诞生,种种。

达尔文,你是在说“进去退化论”吗?
某某反对你的宗教集团说你在临终前说了你犯了一个人生最大的错误。。。
那又是什么呢?

还是。。。 你只是想说你错在相信人类?

人啊。。很乱的。
一公斤的头脑,半斤的心脏。。。我们就已是复杂的机械。
几百万斤的建筑物,几百万深的科学道理,我们一一解剖。那我们真真解剖过自己吗?
真理存不存在。。。不必寻找,就看你的信念。



 在聆听我们左胸-机械之节奏的同时,
莫忘达尔文的含沙射影。。。。。。



也许食物链还没完?


也许达尔文还没完成他的构图?忘了机械的来袭?


                                                                     也许人类只不过是个原点。



 哈。。。。。。。。

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

偷尝的一扣茶

有种脱离的感觉, 也许忙透了吧。很多感想,瞬间又烟消云散。。。知识的蒸发与网络速度可媲美。

无法抗拒 虚拟世界里寻找真实
在部落格某角落歇歇脚

这偷尝的一口茶
感应季节性部落客的心声。


再聊吧。



Sunday, August 9, 2009

 
某月
君问天    此路该怎走
它的回答
孔子曾说
知之为知之;不知为不知,是知也。
老子也曾说
信者吾信之,不信者吾亦信之,得信.
一针见血
对了,那就是道家思想。
我知道也既是我不知道。
我只知道谦卑逊让, 以退为进。
来吧,急骤的暴雨。

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Bon Voyage my Cosy Penang

So long my cosy Penang, a place that I have found my very own site, my identity.

Hope to know you more, my identity.
Hope to grasp you firm, my identity.
Hope realise myself and dear in you, my identity.
You gave me the very best family, the very best dear, the very best friends who are all over the continents right now,
my identity, so much to look forward to.
Penang, wish you the very best.
Penangites, don't lose your faith, lights up the gloom with your power.

and of course, yummy foods i hope you'll wait for me.

hard to describe feelings now, might have been taking a long leave,
till all my mood was gone, ha...that's life. Perhaps Sweet & Sour is a better word. A truly mixed feelings.

Chinese say People Mountain People Sea,
Once upon a time we've got our own dreams to be,
And so we sailed across our own Sea,
To the harbour we've long been waiting.

People mountain people sea, But, What exactly have we seen? Money, Power, Lust?
Or Justice, Well-being and comfort? Sometimes, a simple dinner is superb, watching TV is greatest family time. Sometimes, cooking together can be a great art, playing contests is a wonderful past time.

Hardship ahead,
Come what may,
As long as you love me, Dear.
I know a world without fear,
Just when our hearts are gettin' near.











See you all soon after 17 weeks. Yeah!
Gonna be a long haul, I know, He's there.









To my lovely city, I knew we just got something for each others.

 
  
Adios.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Thailand YEP 2009!

here's little memories from my Youth Expedition Project in Phayakkappum Village, Mahasarakam Province in Thailand from Late May till Mid June. For 21 days, we shared pains and joy, cant really describe the feelings even now. It was very enriching and enjoyable. I miss you guys a lot yo!



 
  
  
  
Starring: the guys
  
 the girls

  
  
  
  
All of you go to work! lolz

  
  
 
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I remember vividly the very first day we arrived in Rangsit, a small town about 1 km away from Bangkok, then we had our first dinner and stayed overnight before moving up to Phayakkapum Phisai, Mahasarakan province at the north-eastern of Thailand. So basically we spent the 2nd day sleeping in the stuffy minivan as the journey was kinda long haul, took about 6-7 hours before reaching our destination. By a twist of fate, my friend managed to get this Church as our temporary lodging which is actually no far away from our construction site. The good news was, yeah, there were proper shower rooms, kitchen, changing room and etc. but the nightmare was those freaky huge bugs that we're gonna spend our days with! There were a lot of them especially after the sunset and in Thailand, sun sets very early around 6pm so the darkness falls right before dinner time. (oh maybe i have been used to living in the real tropics so it was kinda new exp. to me ). Upon dusk, you'll get to see crickets, praying mantis and bettle crawling & spreading all over the floors, the ceiling, the walls, and sometimes in our FOODS! OMG! the great thing was, the minimum bugs sizes you could see were at least 4cm or greater! too bad there wasn't any biology student in my group or else they could have done their specimen sampling over there :) There was another day that the school teachers served us Fried Butterfly!

Back to our work, we didn't actually accomplish our community hall due to time contraints but lucky we managed to cover up till the walls and so we paid the locals all the remaining cash to expedite the roof anytime soon. Before getting our hands dirty for the construction, we splitted our groups into two, one responsible for teaching English in 2 village schools and the other group in charge of the construction. The kids were so innocent and lovely, they were so happy to welcome us as they have never seen real foreigners before. Well, we played with them more than giving lessons. :) You know, there were lots of language barriers occured so what actually happened was we did a lot of chicken & duck talkings, showing gestures using simple Thai words. It was really mind-cracking ... :) and somehow we were taught basic shapes in Thai, like WongKlon for circle, Si liam pum pa for rectangle , WongWee for oval, so we fully utilized those shapes in explaining whatever we wana tell them, for example, saying WongWee to represent chicken eggs and WongKlon to tell them sit in a circle before having meals.

There were sweets & bitter during the constructions since most of us are Amateur, a lot of accidents did occur and the worst was a girl sprained her hip but thank God there wasn't any big deal after X-ray scanning. Due to our inexperiency, we seek professional instructions from Thai workers especially in digging the trench for the pad foundation as well as mixing & pouring the conglomeration ( cement and stuffs) before putting in the beams and columns. It was a hands-on experience despite gettin some cuts on my arms and leg.


Oh ya, there was one day that i realised we have been sleeping together with this Monitor Lizards in our rooms for 3 days consecutively. It was huge, around 20cm in leght, 8cm wide, with green skins and red stripes (quite rare species) and it invaded the male's changing room haha. So couple of us actually started this lizard-hunt and we got a video of it!

Basically, we spent our days teaching English in the morning, have lunch and 2 hours-nap (Thai custom) before starting the construction till evening where we would wash-up, then had our dinner , and moved on to facilitation ( sharing session which we did some bondings), and after all we had our free-n-easy time! They played guitar and drums so I have decided to learn from them :) Some would prefer Private Sharings (we called it HTHT- heart to heart sharing) under the lonely moonlight... till the clock strikes 12, and then we knocked out.

For the last few days in that village, we were re-arranged in 5 groups and had our Homestay with the locals. Me and friends went to this family whose working as farmers, we had to sleep early at night around 9pm and got up around 4am to help them planting paddy in the field. In the afternoon, again we walked around the village and guess what, i managed to borrow a Motorbike from the Village head so we rode around the narrow road with paddy field on our sides! it was so enjoying esp. the breeze in the late afternoon! And the kids taught us how to pluck Waterlily ( apparently there was a big pond of lilies) and we played around with our cameras (cuz they're so excited to see such technologies). :)
I felt so relaxing and really really missed those slacked lifestyle i had over there.... but not so much as i missed my Dear.

After all, we had our cultural exchange nigth where the villagers performed some Thai traditional dances to us and we do likewise. We sang A Singapore song and did some friendship dances with them, not to mention The Chicky Dance that was formulated for the kids! They love to dance! And Limbo as well! So we bid farewell to them and had our own Free-n -easy for the following 5 days in Thailand!

We moved back to Bangkok then proceed to Khacanaburi, a small touristic spot due West of Bangkok. 3 hours bus ride. I have to recommend you this nice spot, we stayed in one of the Back packing hostel, a floating hostel on the River Kwai, the view was spectacular especially when the sunsets. Since I was the only one with Motorbike license, i taught my fellow members how to ride the machine and we rented 4 motorbikes and made our ways due north to Erawan Waterfall which was 65km away from our hostel. It was really a nice experience for us. We've never imagine to ride a motorbike with 80km/h for 1and a half hour! Eventually we got pains in our ass! It became numb!

The waterfall was imposing, huge spot of clean waters with fishes in it, you could feel they were bitting on your body hair whenever you dip your foot in it. Well, it might be a good reflexology who knows!
We actually spent the last 3 days in Bangkok, the girls went to shopping as usual and for me, i did a small tour around Bangkok on foot since I had limited cash, so I walked around with my friends; we got a detailed map of Bangkok City. We visited the Chulaloongkorn University which is just located right in the city core, it was a good university with state-of-the-art facilities and equipment. We went to the Architecture department as well but none of them understand English so our plan to visit the gallery had to be cancalled. Guess we have to brush up our Thai language soon so the next time we could converse well with them. Another thing i discovered was that the students have to wear Uniform even in University, and it resembles the Japanese high school uniform, just a different tone. White and  Black. The guys have to wear formal long sleeves and long pants while the girls dressings are pretty much liberated, in the sense that they could wear either long pants or skirts. Somehow, the university students look akin to Chinenese and Japanese, as they have a fairer skin.

 
ah..a pork broth with raw yolk i guess

you'll see huge buddha statue on road side sometimes  ..this is a temple..

one of the past times of the school kids are playing with these geckos..n feeding them with crickets..poor

view from second floor classroom

Majority of Thai are devoted Buddhists.. they make offerings to monks every morning around market area

so here's view from our resting shed..where we usually took a siesta

teaching art lesson

  
wei liang with kids

here's the teacher! Mr Dominic!

  
  
a good meal after a tired day

me n moomoo

guess what time is this? 6.45am! it's so damn bright!

me n chu hwai werent focusing... haha..

discussion with translators

  
Kids are learning simple ABC pretty fast!
ah...Phayakkapum

 
Somewhere I'll missed.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

南洋傀儡戏

独立52年,马来西亚政府在某方面有显著的进展,就是众所周知的傀儡术。隐隐约约,南洋最佳.
尤其在近几年,大马更冒出了许多傀儡组织, 什么警察,反贪污局啦都还不是挂羊头卖狗肉,
纯粹任人摆动的木偶。

啀,人民们期待已久的正义何时才会现身?

说人权? 比阿隆折磨手段更为冷血!
要公正,说骗话;要交待,说鸟话!
见人见鬼都一样,
天大地大,原来鸟最大!

也许对鸟的钟爱,除了滥权滥杀, 说起话也滥鸟。

真是
天黑黑,夜长长,风吹草低见流氓!
阴谋多,功绩少,掩盖事实更加好!

污黑局/团-总之,多行不善必自毙。

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